I am reminded that there can be peace in the “and,” that it is possible to fear a loss of independence, and still trust God’s plan. That I can grieve the diminishment of my mobility, and have faith that God will carry me. That I can feel angry and discouraged that there is not yet a cure for F A, and trust that God’s timing is perfect. It is possible to be both hopeful and fearful; contradictory emotions don’t have to cancel each other out. They can coexist. So I will strive to feel them, speak them, work through them, and deal with them wherever they lead me.